Its 4 am, and all i could do is think. Think about you. What can i do, im confuse as fawk. Every time i think i’m over you, you pop back in my life. telling that you love me, that you want us to grow old and have a family….. however you don’t want a relationship now?? that doesnt make any sense. We finally cleared things up today, and how you didn’t cheat on me. That your little brother, my so called friend, lied to me. He didn’t want me to be with you. Now, that i know the truth and how we were both each other first, makes me feel a little better. Every single time, i’m near you i melt inside…why?? I dont even know. I turn speechless, i get butterflies in my tummy. The worst part is that deep down inside i know nothing will ever grow beyond what “we” have right now. I feel horrible now, knowing that you kept yourself to just me. The fact that i did things with other people. I miss talking to you, i miss having that one special person to tell everything too. Why can’t you be that person to me again….because i’m a distraction to you. How?? tell me how am i?? Ill be 6 hr away, i wont bug to take me out or buy me things, only when i come down would i except you to spend time with me. Fuck theres so much more going through my head…..